I [F] just wanted to drop you an image of my little guy [M] in his happy place between my thighs. Don't give up hope. Gentle/Mommy Dommes exist and/or may be cultivated. Know what you want and seek it, craft it.
Check on your domme, tell her you feel safe around her or that you're enjoying time spent with her. Dommes are human too, they need care too. Don't forget about them.